So, I know I haven’t wote in a couple days, but I’ve been working and then getting up eartly for rifle practice. I’ve been trying to work with the girls so they’re shooting better. I’ve been planing with Beverly (hp commander) on changing their boring drill, and closing almost every night at work. When I’m not doing that I’m either sleeping or at school in class. I’ve also been helping some of the staff in ROTC at lincoln and keeping up with breonna and nhi trying to help them when I can. Oh, and a few minutes in there every night I call phillip to say “I love you and goodnight” because anything more than that we would fall asleep on the phone.
Things have been unberrable at home. I’m scared to sleep in my own bed. I’m completely tired and drained from all happiness right now, so I’m trying to get out my troubles. There’s really nothing I can do! My dad hasn’t gone past that line that I can really do anything about it, but yet he’s right behind it. This morning he kept opening my bedroom door and looking in and would find reasons to say something so he could open the door, WITHOUT KNOCKING!!! That is why I have once again lowered that sheet that goes around my bed so he can’t see me. I don’t feel comfortable in my own room! Every moment with him close by or in the house is like being raped all over again…and I can’t take it!!! I was so sick yesterday I had to come home from school, but I still went to work so I wouldn’t be home with him. (well not like you can find anyone to cover your shifts anymore) Whenever they need someone to fill in they always call me, because I’m the only one that always will come in.
If I don’t get out of the house by the end of the summer next year, I don’t know what I’m going to do, because I can’t stay here anymore. Phillip is going to help me find a good truck, getting the right inssurance and saving money so I can move out.
I just don’t know what to do anymore.
Aly:
this is on the spot, lets see how well i can do it.
yellow dots on orange ones and silent blue eyeballs
smiley purple lilacs and endless plain house halls
life on a faraway moonbase as the king king of kings
these are a few of my favourite things
integration of e^x and diffraction of light
taking a limit with no end in sight!
thinking of inertia while pushing prettygirls in tireswings
these are a few of my favourite things
when i’m feeling confused
when the money’s gone
when i feel like crap
i simply remember my favourite things
and then I dont feel so bad
this took me a good 10 minutes and a visit to the rhyme site for something that rhymes with “things”
Good Luck, Alyster.
Sounds like things at Jamba are a little dramatic? That’s what Hannah said, anyway… Why is that?
I’m really glad you’re enjoying ROTC though. It sounds like you’re having a lot of fun with it.
Is room and board included in the tuition that Lincoln will pay for you to go to college? If it is, then there’s your answer… You’ll be out of the house by the time you start college. Which brings me to the question… do you really think you’ll stay in high school next semester when you could graduate and start college next semester? If you really want to go out for pentathalon and military ball queen and stuff, then I’ll support you… but I duno… once you get into college, the truth that high school really doens’t matter at all really sets in. Personally, I think it’d be better t start college as soon as possible… and that way you can move out sooner too, instead of having to wait until next August (ugh!).
And now I’m in Boulder so I am obligated to say: FIND AN ALTERNATE SOURCE OF SUSTAINABLE TRANSPORTATION! CARS ARE BAD! THEY POLLUTE! AND THEY COST A LOT OF MONEY! YUCKY YUCK YUCK!
haha.
They’re having a sustainable transportation fair up here next week. I don’t exactly know what that is. But something tells me there’s going to be a lot of bikes, skateboards, and mopeds that run on recycled plastic bags or something. haha.
But ah…
It makes me sad to see you sad. =(
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Be happy love, God’s taking care of you. =)
Oh, and come visit me sometime!